Medicine

I couldn't sleep last night. We are arranging a gravestone for my Mum and it's hard. All the memories... Today I met a doctor who helped so much my Mum. And this meeting was also very emotional.

I'm trying keep my mind busy so I'm watching lots of series. This one isn't the greatest ever, but... someone said that the worst word is 'later'. And it realy hit me. Later I'll spent more time with my Mum.

Later I'll take her somewhere.

Later I'll give her something special.

Later I'll tell her about everything.

Later... I'll tell her I love her.

Later I'll tell him that he is so special. That I'loved him.

There was no later. There won't be later.