Sick

After a short improvement, Rudy's condition is getting worse. I'm that stressed that everytime he drinks water my heartbeat is two times faster. And as always it's f*%^ing long weekend. I don't know whether I'll catch any vet tomorrow. Also - we still don't have results. I know we don't have much time, but I still can't process it. For a while I even thought everything will be ok. Rudy... Is almost a half of my life. He's also something that still connects with my Mum. So many memories. That's why everything is so hard. I'm also exhausted because of the fever and cough. How much longer?