I spent Saturday watching LS, doing nothing and not wanting anything
went back to exercise in the evening ^^
today there was also a breakthrough in therapy, suddenly everything fell together, the last element jumped into place and everything made sense :D
Karolina helped me a lot with this thought process (we were talking about it for long and I'm really grateful for her valuable comments) and Mery (who started it all) helped a little too :)
now I feel I'm ready to finish my therapy ^g^