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Do you know this feeling when you kinda forgot about something but you don't know what exactly? Or this feeling when you know that there are certain things you need to do but time passes and those undone things just live on the back of your head, reminding from time to time about themselves? Or when there is a word you want to use to describe something and you are trying to find the exact, obvious word and you can't? This feeling is all my recent years. I'm fed up with falling into this pit again and again. I'm sick of being defeated and miserable. Being useless. Feeling insecure. Pernamently stressed. Im exhausted that my inner self punish me for every slip and doubt. So. No more pits. Its hard but possible, as the last month proves. Funny, it took me so long before I saw that I couldn't really relax. I thought - thats life, a hard, dark and a bit sad series of events that you have to go through, with a few wonderful moments thrown so that you can continue. You can get used to it but it still sucks. That's why I didn't really like living. But yeah, no more pits. I'm curious how its like on the very top. If that sucks too, I can always go back downhill, right? 😅