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It was hard day and I've just sit at the front of my computer, woke it up and saw open tab of tookapic... Yes, I excatly thought some bad words followed by "I need to take a pic". So I took selfie not moving myself a bit, just lighten it by my desk lamp. I think it's the first selfie here without any local enhancement and correction. Just exposure, curve and color balance during b&w conversion.

I'm a bit surprised that I can accept it like that. I started to believe that I'm enough definitely too late. Maybe it's "my time", but for years I was doubting in my appearance and in my value in general. Even despite I have proofs that I'm good enough, or even better than average. But some things heard when I was a kid, lack of some other things when I was in my teens, lead to a woman that on the one hand knew she's doing good, but on the other tried to find a confirmation of that not fully believing in it. It took me years (and I'm not finished yet) to change my mindset and simply accept who am I in general. What doesn't mean that I don't want to make me better at some points of course. But I have only one body to live in, hating it doesn't seem to be a path to happiness ;-)

Recently I've read that Tibetan people doesn't have a term like self-esteem. Because every human there is "valid". It's so beautiful!

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