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last weeks weren't good for me - I felt lonely and some way depressed so today I deicded to change something in my life

I think I can't explain what exactly the problem is but will try to explain what I'll do about it :p I want to work on five competences - like five fingers in my hand ;)

DOtyk - touch: my sense of people's private zone is too strong - I almost don't touch people although it's normal that you tap your friend's arm or knee, hug somebody spontaneously, etc. - so I want to break it a bit and touch people on purpose (ofc. when it's okay to touch them, don't worry, I won't importune anybody, just want to get used to natural touch) :)

DUma - proud: it's sometimes bashfully for me to talk about myself, being an offbeat person I'm afraid that people would feel worse hearing about my achievements or wouldn't understand some of my life approaches :p but you know, I've got a beautiful life and it's something I can be proud of - never wanted to compare myself to others, never felt like somebody better and always want to share my lifehacks and thoughts - so today I accepted there's nothing censurable in living as you want and being happy :)

1, 2, 3 - when feeling I can't do something (for example walk up somebody, ask awkward question, etc.), it's the worst to think about it and protract; the best you can do is to count to three and just do it - and that's exactly what I want to do in such situations :)

CHaryzma - charisma: training to have a nice chat with salesgirl, wink at somebody, complimenting, flirting, kidding, etc. - just want to develop more self-confidence; I don't take any portraits on Tookapic because it's awkward for me to ask somebody or just bring out my camera - so I start a challegne today: at least one portrait published on my profile every week, this will force me into just bringing out the camera, smile and take portraitraits of people under the rule: better to beg for forgiveness than ask for permission :)

:) - SMILE: the last and the most important thing, I don't have troubles with smiling (smile a lot everywhere) but it's worth to remember it like other four fingers - the more smile-ended eye contacts the better ^-^

thank you if you read it, you really needn't do it but if you did, I appreciate it a lot :D